Saturday, June 4, 2011

Anyone can change...anyone..!



Time for another controversial gay viewpoint froom yours truly.

I think it's a choice. This may sound dickish, but I think a majority of gays don't really think about it. They just reiterate what's already been jammed down their throat by the community. The common viewpoint is that it's genetic, because somehow that makes it more acceptable for society. Like god created the gay, therefore the bible thumpers are way off base for not accepting it. The person who "choses" to be gay is a sexual deviant. So therefore it's not a choice.

I don't agree with any of this. I do believe in the Kinsey scale. Personally I think most people are born inherently bisexual, and then at some point in their life they make a decision as to how the want to spend their lives; be it gay, straight or bisexual. It depends on one's tendency to cater to societal norms; even these days even choosing to be gay has a certain level of conformity to it.

Nature likely does play a role and pushes you in one direction or another. When I was younger I was deeply attracted to guys, especially when I felt that I would never get to have one. Now it's decades later and I've had tons of them. I still am, but I also understand that attraction better.

But let's say I ended up spending a lot of time with Megan Fox and we really hit it off. What if we get along great and one night we ignore my "orientation" and we go at it, Let's say it's amazing and we fall madly in love. Let's say it last several years; and it's even monogamous. Is it really that out of left field to think that I may no longer have an interest in dudes...?

Do I think Christian De-Gaying Shock Therapy can change one's mind...? Hell no! But do I think that de-gaying can happen...? Abso-freakin-lutely!

When I was younger, I was a huge fan of Morrissey. I mean huge! I loved the man, I would listen to nothing but him and could never imagine myself being anything other than a Smiths fan. It was intense it was passionate, I sold my entire record collection specifically to buy all Smiths & Morrissey. I followed him on the Northeastern US part of the Kill Uncle tour. I mean he literally was my world.

Nowadays I like the occasional song, but for a long time I wondered what the hell I was thinking. Look at marriage, at the time it seems like it's forever, but look what happens when it's not. It's like how was I ever attracted to this person..? How did I think I could spend the rest of my life with them...?

But yet if someone decides to widen that sudden lack of attraction to an entire gender...it's kiboshed by both gays and straights. But reality, gays analyze this more. Once a gay, always a gay, if you've ever longed for a penis you are doomed to life of bright Dolce & Gabbana, and redundant Lady Gaga songs. It's just that simple, and that really is the way a lot of them see it.

Me, I'm not the same person I was when I was 18. Not even slightly, I have very few of the same interests and hobbies. The hobbies I have now are things I thought I would never be interested in. If sleeping with women were part of that it wouldn't surprise me. On the same token, I also think it's something I could go out and pursue and become really "into" if I wanted to.

But honestly...I don't care. I'm happy with what I have going on. Sexuality is fickle and superficial as it is deep and spiritual. My love for Morrissey was deep and spiritual. But it's what I chose.

To say that I was born this way is ridiculous. It caters to the notion that "See I'm just like you idiot straight person who doesn't like me". We both come from the same god, so therefore you should accept me. My viewpoint is more of the "This is what I chose, and I like it...accept me or don't" variety.

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